Today the most hilarious thing I saw was when Garrett was slapping Sean's cheeks and screaming, "Ai! Ai! Ai! Ai!!" posted by Melike at 02:03
Today I had perhaps one of my coolest dreams ever. I don't want to go into the details because the majority of it is about the guy I like. Hehe, well. I don't know if I like him; I just think he's cute but it's nothing serious or deep. Liking guys obsessively is baaad bad bad. So I'm taking out some parts. Anyway, part of the dream involved robotic AI teachers and it was pretty scary. Then Juliad the windows and all this dust and pollen drifted inside the classroom and I walked out of the class so it wouldn't get in my hair. Then I saw this satanic marching band (people from school) who wore white robes with black crosses on them and black images of animals. Then, they had a whole procession down the hallway and played/sang one of the Pupperville songs. Kitaro was the main singer, and it was pretty creepy. By now, everybody else in my class was watching it too, and we were very amused. Then we went back into the room, and I had this piece of gum stuck on my hand or shoe or something so I started chewing it (it was disgusting..). As I chewed it, it got bigger and more unmanageable, and I couldn't get it out. Alexa started tickling me, too, so I was laughing and going insane. Then I finally took it out, yay. I think the class consisted mostly of choir people, and some other miscellaneous people. I really can't remember much. I think we were learning a few dance moves. Then, I don't remember the next part, but we (my parents and I) had to live in a trailer next to Disneyland until we found a new house. At night, some people from the class were like, "Let's go to Disneyland!" but we weren't allowed to leave our trailers, so I think Tom stole a police uniform and was wearing that. Anyway, we were all taking a nice walk at night, but when we walked back to our "cabin" (I don't know where that came from), I saw a bunch of snakes in our way, and was freaking out. We were fighting all the snakes and collected a whole bunch and tossed them off a cliff, and decided to not go into the cabin anymore. The outside was set up like the Greek, and we took out pillows and blankets and there was a limited number so we had to share. But so then we were in a "car" with an interior as big as a room, so we were all nice and cozy with the blankets and pillows. I noticed that I'd forgotten to take my backpack off, so this guy held me while Tom took off my backpack. Then I accidentally put on Tom's backpack. Anyway, that was a bit odd. But then, Tom, Lawson, and I were just joking around and having fun. I was really sleepy, though, so I said good night to everyone, but people hadn't really thought of sleeping as an option. There was a long silence and Mr. Rhodes suddenly said, "So, do you want to listen to some music or something?" (I don't know where he came from.) We put some music on, and we were driving down the streets, when we saw this group of people and they were doing these dances to earn money, and just while we were passing them, we noticed that they had stolen OUR dance moves! They were our enemies! So we whirred the car around and started chasing them, and I think we somehow let go of the keys and they went flying out into the air, and Tom leapt out of the car and caught the keys mid-air in his mouth and the day was saved. It looked so funny, and it was the climax of the dream, I guess. Very dramatic looking scene, hehe. That's all I remember. I like naps. I'm just beginning to feel completely free. posted by Melike at 01:35
Friday, May 10, 2002
Ack!! MidiGraphy won't work! And I can't find any other MIDI sequencers. I mean, I'm sure I'd find others if I weren't so sleepy. *sigh* But yeah, that sucks. I guess I'll just compeuse on the old computer. Not now, though. Now I shall sleep. posted by Melike at 20:57
Google Search: "the sun archives". Aww. Only one today. Today when we were driving back home, I was half-napping in the sun while KROQ was on, and it was such a nice feeling. I imagined myself in a backyard or a park, just spread out on the grass and no worries. Maybe a glass of ice cold lemonade next to me. I didn't really feel like drinking lemonade then, but it seemed like the perfect prop to complete the picture. Yeah, I'm unusually tired. I doubt there will be any studying for AP chemistry tonight. posted by Melike at 19:39
Thursday, May 09, 2002
Sometimes life rules. Other times it's okay. Oh, but it's never so bad. In fact, it's really funny.. unless when someone dies. posted by Melike at 23:29
Yahoo! Search Results for memorizing the presidents in a song (yes, this is another one), Google Search: ap bio predicted essays, Google Search: "practice AP biology test", Yahoo! Search Results for sometimes I feel like a moanin' dove. I was wondering why people kept searching for presidents and AP bio, but then I just remembered that people probably need the presidents for tomorrow's AP US History! Muwahhaa, I'm not taking it. Hell no, baby. I hate history with a passion.. I'm sorry. But good luck to all the AP Bio people out there, I hope you all get 5s! Today I took AP English, and the multiple choice section made me sad, but I did awesome job on the essays (or so I thought at the time.. I can't quite remember now). But two of my essays had three developed body paragraphs so that's good. The other one had two paragraphs, but that's because I didn't have much to say about that. It was a prettyended thing. I was so scared that the prompts would be bitchy, but no, I got lucky so I liked the prompts. I love taking APs! They're all official and stuff, and you get to put stickers on stuff! But I'm soo scared about the AP Chem. Maybe if I started studying my morale would go up (or down). But noo I can't study! I can't get myself to! Ahh, today is May 9th. Today was the day you kissed me for the first time, oh dear life with your rainbowy colors, showing me how wonderful life is. I'm listening to "A Cappella" now, by The Idea of North. I think this one's my favorite song. Ahhhhh. Some people are SO CUTE AND ADOrABLE. *sob* I can't wait until they sign my yearbook (not that it matters much), and until the Spring Concert, when I shall get to hug them tightly and cry on their shoulders and reluctantly let them go on to college. *sniffle* posted by Melike at 22:21
I have the AP English exam in about 9 hours, and I am sitting here producing choir propaganda materials, with sleep dripping out of my eyes. (Wow, that's actually a Turkish idiom, sorry. Sometimes I can't notice what language I think/talk in. The other day I said a Turkish sentence, then could almost bet that I'd accidentally used an English word in there.. but I hadn't.) posted by Melike at 02:13
You know what? I don't feel crappy and weird when we're in the same room anymore, nor do I feel warm and fuzzy. I just feel normal, and sometimes perhaps a bit peeved. I suspect that's how you feel too. This is as good as it gets, and I hope we never talk again. It will skew the beautiful equilibrium we've got going. posted by Melike at 00:38
Wednesday, May 08, 2002
Yahoo! Search Results for Memorizing the Presidents, Google Search: procrastination/time management, Google Search: Memorizing presidents, Yahoo! Canada Search Results for history of nailpolish. Wow. This is so fun to look at. I feel like I'm butting in on people's lives. It's really fun to look at the keywords that lead to my site. Then I go to those pages and read the little blurb taken from my page with the searched words bolded, and try to guess why people would want to click there. It's like entertainment, only better. Anyway, I might as well write stuff here instead of babble on about search engines all the time. Today I took my first AP test of the year - Spanish! It took WAY too long and I wanted to just get out of there, but I guess I missed an entire day of school (but also choir, grr) and they ordered us pizza! How nice of them! Anyway, it was of moderate difficulty, and I have no idea how I did. The only thing I remember about it is that there was this passage about this guy and a monkey and it was sort of hard. I was too scared to omit too many questions, so I wonder if I should have omitted more. Oh well. The essay was easy, but halfway through I noticed how dumb I was sounding and what I was saying wasn't really making sense (well, grammatically it was). Oh well, it was of average quality. I wish we could find out what they give on the essays.. oh well. Then came the speaking part. I was soo nervous for some reason, and was trembling and everything. First we had to tell a story about a sequence of six pictures in two minutes. Regularly I don't get to talk about all of the six because I run out of time (and that is bad), but today I actually talked about all of them, and my talking wasn't that bad. There weren't too many long pauses and giggling, like that one day in which I couldn't stop laughing and had no idea what to say. In fact, it was a better talking than usual. I haven't talked in Spanish for so long, and whenever I tried, it was bad. I guess it was just the adrenaline rush. Then there were the five short questions, where you talk for 20 seconds and move on to the next question. The topic was movies, and since I don't watch movies a lot and don't really have an opinion on most things, I stuttered, trying to find something to say. Yeah, it wasn't as good as the six-picture story one, but at least it wasn't a complete failure. Then I trembled for a while afterwards. Today, the guys and I played QuakeIII on the computer, then when I was idly walking around during 6th period, I heard screaming from Gaida's room so I went in there and played Tron with Garrett, Mr. Gaida, and Sean. It was very fun because I beat all of them at the beginning, but then I got really bad, and then they kicked me off because Kazim came. Oh well!! Jazz Choir was canceled today because Cindy is sick. :( Wah! While we were waiting for her, I was so hyper and I was making Tom, Megan, and Lawson laugh hysterically. Then Tom took off his shirt to wear another one because he was hot. ....yes, today was a good day. Hehehe. HEHEHE. Yes! I love hanging out with Garrett and Tom.. but never together. It just never turns out to be that way. Yay Garrett! Yay Tom! And yay Lawson, he's so nice! *sits there and snickers* posted by Melike at 20:29
Is everything you tell me a lie? posted by Melike at 01:52
Yahoo! Search Results for sayings about getting high from drugs...and on drugs!!lol and Google Search: pictures from september 11 devil's face. Have you noticed that my blog is usually displayed on the first page of search engine results? That is amazing, and I don't know what I did to rank that high, but it's getting me entertainingly random hits every day. It's so interesting. It's nice to have an almost 1.5-year-old blog with a huge store of random words coming from my head and people coincidentally stumbling upon them. I feel.. important! I'm really starting to like Java, and I hope I can start the homework earlier than Sunday this week. That would decrease my stress level significantly.. as if I have that much stress. But that's not too good, huh? One needs a little bit of stress in life to succeed.. which proves the low levels of success I currently have. posted by Melike at 01:22
Tuesday, May 07, 2002
Google Search: summery of the count of monte cristo Hehe. Good thing that I didn't misspell 'summary' in my blog and the word was actually used correctly. I think it's funny that sometimes people misspell a word that they see very often. Well, at least I think it's funny. Ohh, I sound so mean now. Anyway, I am sexy today. My hair has, for some reason, dried really well and is big and wavy and gorgeous. And there's nothing else to look at anyway.. :P j/k. Tomorrow is the AP test for Spanish! I'm so.. er.. excited. Hehe. Well, I'm not too scared about it, since I've gotten 5s on all of the practices. What I am scared of is the chemistry. Yeah. Perhaps (hopefully) I'll get a 4 on it. Anyway, Java is fun and it brings me joy. I just stress about it too much. It's funny, because I'm not stressing out about anything else right now (well, except math). I'll try and work on that. posted by Melike at 18:04
Disturbing search result: Google Search: crossdresser tan lines bikini top And here's another one.. Yahoo! Search Results for chat who online jaden (not really disturbing) I don't care that you don't care. *grin* YOU MUST BE ENTERTAINED BY THIS! Today the first part of Mrs. Rubin's math test sent everybody crying hysterically during the next period, and awakened this great uproar of panic and chaos and Mrs. Wexler was trying to go over reaction predictions. And Garrett ditched 5th, so I couldn't play Quake. *sighs* posted by Melike at 22:07
At least I know one thing: even if it doesn't seem like it, this is what makes life absolutely beautiful. Speaking of life and of love, Teoman seems to be an extremely depressed man. *grins* posted by Melike at 03:52
You know what word I like? Phenolphtalein. It has such an interesting spelling. Tis cute. posted by Melike at 03:19
Then sometimes I think about love and it seems very unattractive to me. Like, ew. Why, man, why? What are you thinking? What's the point? Well, perhaps lovers have a good reason, while some others don't. Some others can't even think that they will ever feel like that again. Of course, they always get proven wrong. At least I know that much. Even when they're utterly disgusted with the idea of wholly trusting someone again? I guess so. But this probably does not matter for me. It's best not to think about it, because I get filled with disgust as I keep thinking about it. Sometimes I imagine myself in the arms of some imaginary, faceless, warm guy. Other times I push him away and say, "Ugh. Get off of me." He used to have a face in my mind, now I can't imagine him as anyone I know. Now he's just arms that hold me. As I said before, they annoy me and I feel like pushing him away and hurting him. Leave me alone so that I may practice for my AP tests. I remember how life was exactly a year ago. May 2001 was the happiest month of my life. Sophomores are so cute. Anyway, now I'm despising any social contact with people. If it weren't for shopping and surprise parties, I might have gotten much more accomplished yesterday. Most of the time I don't think time spent with friends is "worth it" anymore. What does it all add up to? Even the happiness doesn't last, since immediately after the friendly reunion is over, we scatter on home and freak out about homework. Actually, work and tests are all people talk about nowadays. Oh well. That's why I don't like talking to people much. I sound really weird at night. Now, on to the remainder of my homework. posted by Melike at 03:00
Yay! My mom got me a shiny, brand new pair of white shoes! My dad also got me a new cell phone because the other one's screen died for some inexplicable reason (well.. I can take a guess, but I'm not in the confessing mood). Man, Teoman's songs are SO depressing.. all of them. But they're great! Yay him. I was going to say more stuff, but oh well. I guess not. posted by Melike at 20:47
Yahoo! Search Results for sheet music,monteverdi,sfogava con le stelle Yay chior! Anyway, I haven't started the Java homework yet, so I probably should. My mom just recovered a bunch of summery shoes from the depths of the closet, so I'll probably wear my boots less now, even though I love them. In addition to that, I got new shoes!, which I will be wearing tomorrow. Today is the 2nd anniversary of the founding of Jason Day. Ahh, memories of Jason Day! Get ready the Jason firecrackers and release the Jason balloons! My hands and feet are almost frozen stiff, but that's okay. Man! I have soo many drawing ideas now, and I can't wait until the APs are over. Not that I'm studying at every waking minute, but at least I feel less guilty when I'm doing nothing instead of doing something off-task. If I could change one thing about myself, I would enable myself to do productive things while procrastinating. Anyway, for those who actually care about my website, I already have a bunch of things drawn (just doodles on paper), and will upload and display them as soon as I draw the Bianca drawing I have in mind. That may take a couple of weeks. Anyway, I'm glad this blog is one-sided.. not those ones with the commenting systems, because people would either not respond to any of them or post comments that I would overanalyze and feel insulted about. Besides, then I'd check my blog at least 20 times a day and therefore get fake hits and think I'm so popular. This way, nobody can shatter the image of the world inside my head unless they come up to me in person and say it in my face! (Or, if they e-mail me, which doesn't happen anyway.. besides, this blog isn't really that significant in life and e-mailing me about it would be a waste of time anyway.) So yay! posted by Melike at 18:40
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