People are gonna think I'm stoned or something while I write these posts. I really am not. posted by Melike at 02:19
I feel pretty weird right now. It's like suddenly everything has disappeared. It's a weird feeling. I have none of the feelings that I was feeling yesterday. *puts her head back and looks up at the ceiling* I hate feeling like this, and maybe I should just get to sleep. But I need to update my site first, even though I feel bad putting up just four pictures. They're perfectly fine pictures, though! Especially the Lucifer one, I spent quite a bit of time on that. I should definitely draw more. For some strange reason, I stopped getting so many hits from the search engines. I wonder what is the matter with them? Hmm, very weird indeed. As I've said, it's as if everything's disappeared. Hopefully things aren't as bad as I fear them to be. I don't even know what I fear. I feel like everything has changed suddenly today. But that's okay because I'm wearing my brand new pants today. Maybe they bring me bad luck, hehe j/k. There are some distinct things that make me angry or hurt. They're very little things, but I really get a bad feeling when they happen. I don't even know what I'm talking about, and right now I have the weirdest urge to go paint my toenails. posted by Melike at 02:18
Friday, July 05, 2002
Yay I'm done with the drawing! *pats herself on the back* Right now I hate it, but I'll get to like it soon. *grins* Tomorrow I shall put it up! posted by Melike at 02:56
I set my screensaver to be a slideshow of all the Team Rocket pictures I have! Yaaay! Team Rocket is sooo cool! *sigh* I used to be quite the Rocketshipper back in the day. Musashi and Kojiro are soo sexy, and I used to have the biggest crush on Kojiro. Man, I want a guy like Kojiro! He's the best! So sexy and innocent-looking at the same time! Ahhh I'd hug him all the time. I have all these screenshots of Musashi and Kojiro hugging. My favorite one is them holding hands, and Kojiro's trying to make Musashi feel better, and there are rainbows and flowers in the background, and Nyasu is sniffling at a corner, but we don't care so much about him. *grin* *looks at her Musashi and Kojiro figures* Man. I want to collect Team Rocket stuff. But by now probably nobody sells that stuff anymore! However, I do own a Team Rocket shirt! I just wish it didn't say Pokemon on it. Grrr. Stupid Pokemon. Team Rocket was the only reason I watched that show. posted by Melike at 00:15
Thursday, July 04, 2002
Ahh! I've started inking my masterpiece! Well, it's not really a masterpiece. Just what I thought of doing last night. I hope I can finish coloring it tonight, even though it's gonna take me a while. Grrr, I must finish it today! posted by Melike at 23:33
OMG I GOT THE GREATEST IDEA FOR A DRAWING! Yes! I was reading my character profiles and got really inspired. I shall do it tomorrow, YOU SHALL SEE! I wonder if I should color it by hand or on the computer. Hm.. Tough call! Damn it, I want it to be perfect! AHHHH!!!! Haha. I always see the filename "morganfaces.jpg" as "morganfeces.jpg." The 2nd name suits it better. :P *goes to bed right away so she can wake up the next day and draw* posted by Melike at 04:26
*loiters online* I finished the drawing! You don't get to see it just yet, you have to wait until the update! And if you're lucky, maybe I'll draw more until then! Yay summer! *skips around* Everything is going quite well. I'm happy with just about anything, I guess. Nothing that's going horribly wrong. Maybe I'll draw and color something every night. That way I don't feel so bad when I'm up chatting, because I'm actually accomplishing something at the same time. Ooo, and colors are so cool. I need to make more cgs. I also need to stop drawing Josh and Morgan. I mean gee, Midnight, Bianca, Nex, Matt, and Max are perfectly fine characters. They just aren't as colorful as Josh and Morgan. Maybe that's what's attracting me to Josh and Morgan. Ah well, I'll find a way around it. It's pretty sad because as characters, Josh and Morgan alone are pretty boring. They satirize my view of a perfect life and nothing goes wrong. And they always stick together. It's sad. Nuahahaha. What crummy, two-dimensional characters! Actually, right now I'm thinking up problems for them so they won't be so perfect. They'll just LOOK perfect. Oh, but that's sad, the point of Josh and Morgan is that they're the perfect couple! So maybe they'll have problems in everything else but that. I'll make Josh fail his audition and not get into Madrigals. Hehe, just kidding. That'd be brutal. Oh, as I've said before, I'll find a way around it. Besides, Midnight, Bianca, Matt, Nex, and Max make wonderful humor when they're together and are therefore more fun. I need to draw them more. In fact, I need to draw everything more. Except for Morgan. Poop on her, enough of her already. posted by Melike at 04:01
I can now draw on command! That's better compared to the past, when I couldn't draw even when I forced myself. Today I was just like, "Hmm, I think I'll draw now." AND I DID! And I liked it so much that I inked it and am coloring it on Painter right now. Is that not awesome? Oh I know. I'm very proud of myself. I hope I draw more lots so I can put them all up at the next update! Then I'll be updated yaay! *goes back to colowing* posted by Melike at 02:20
Wednesday, July 03, 2002
That's weird, I was feeling guilty about something but now I don't remember what it was. Grr!!! posted by Melike at 02:04
Last night, I drew! I probably won't for a few months. But no matter. Today I went out with some random (but actually, not so random as it seems) people and had lots of fun, even though I laugh too much. It took me back to the days of 5th grade and 7th grade, where once I laughed at something, anything else anyone said triggered it more. It usually happens while I'm eating, too. I just laughed at every insignificant little thing, and they weren't even that special. And finally, what really took me back to the olden days was when JP said, "LOOK MELIKE! I'M BREATHING!" *laughs at it still* Ahhhh. I tried to feed chicken to a little bird but it didn't eat it. Wah. That's sort of morbid though. Man! I feel like it's my fault for not meeting any new people sooner. And now they're leaving! For good! It makes me so sad. Oh well, this summer proves to be really fun. Then there's, of course, Idyllwild and Turkey, yaha! But I keep saying that. Today was a semi-no-internet day. From now on, every day will be a semi-no-internet day. I'll come online during night, and will have time to do stuff during the day! How ingenius is that?! posted by Melike at 02:03
Tuesday, July 02, 2002
Ah, everybody must witness this!
Yes folks, that is what we call LUB! Experience the warmth.. notice the sexiness! Back when I could draw! And guess what? This was drawn with a mouse! YES, it predates my tablet! What was that, two summers ago? Nonetheless, it's always good to see my characters animated. Now I don't even see them on paper. I wish I'd done more animations back in the day. Click here tothe gif in a new window, and reload it as many times as you want! posted by Melike at 03:27
Monday, July 01, 2002
Blogger's been going nutty lately. Oh well, it'll get fixed. I had some really cute dreams concerning a blond tenor. :P And other things, but I don't remember them anymore. Last night I read the first two volumes of Ranma. My goal was to finish one volume last night and read the second one today, but I just couldn't stop. *trembles* IT IS SO GOOD! I need to thank Lawson for changing my life. In the meanwhile, I think I'll buy some more Sailor Moon manga and Ah! My Goddess manga. Those were pretty as well. Sailor Moon Sailor Moon Sailor Moooon is so cool too! *sobs* RANMA IS SO CUTE! THEY ARE BOTH SO ROMANTIC! *sniffle* Oh, I want to draw, but the only people I want to draw are Josh and Morgan. Grr, it gets boring after a while. I won't want to be drawing them all the time! Anyway, I need to declare some No-Internet days again. Starting tomorrow. Roar! posted by Melike at 15:50
Sunday, June 30, 2002
Grr! I hate it when the only thing stopping me from doing what I want to do is something being lost. Roar. It's not often when I get motivated to do stuff, and it's not fair when I can't find what I need to do what I want! *bursts into hysterical tears* posted by Melike at 23:12
I'm such a dummy. Last week, I thought last Monday was actually Sunday, so I didn't check all of my daily comics until Tuesday, and noticed that I also had Monday's to check. And today, I thought it was Monday, so I looked at all of the comics I usually check, wondering why none of them were updated yet. Hah, anyway. I'm so happy with my photo page even though it's nothing much. I feel like I've finally found a way to let my friends experience a piece of Turkey. But it's sort of biased against my tastes, I guess, since I like the old wooden houses, but that's not what all of Istanbul is comprised of. The next time I go there I'll try and take pictures of other things as well. posted by Melike at 16:43
Grr! I'm not as used to computers as I used to be. Today I sat here for only 8 hours and I feel like I'm going to die. Maybe I won't wait for people to come online tonight, grr. Besides, I feel a huge knot in my stomach that randomly came up, and now I feel like I'm going to explode. Damn it, my life goal is to find out how to get rid of this HORRIBLE feeling of anxiety/guilt that just eats away at my stomach and makes my breathing become uneven. And I will! posted by Melike at 01:12
YES! I've done everything I said I would last night. Go me go me go me! Look at my photography, everyone! Yay. Okay it's not that great. But it took a heck of a time to compile. In fact, I don't think I'll be changing it ever. Unless I'm feeling really insane someday, and that's bound to happen. Grrr. posted by Melike at 00:37
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