OK.. I am so freaked out.. you know how I didn't believe this when I saw it? Well, I looked for the video on CNN and you can actually see it. So yeah, that's sort of creepy.. not to mention that I showed it to my mom and she also found a skull in the smoke after the devil's face was gone. It's really there for a split second but it's there. I also think that video is the best angle from which the plane can be seen.. it's the best video of the thing I've seen. And yes, I do happen to be sick. Earlier in the day, snot was literally dripping out of my nose. But then my mom gave me hot chicken noodle soup and medicine and a cough drop and I just curled up on my bed listening to Californication. Then I guess I must have drifted off to sleep, because I gained my consciousness and started thinking, "Hey, what happened to the song before this?" You know what, I hate it when just before you wake up you happen to be thinking about something splendid, but as soon as you wake up you try to go back to that train of thought but it's out of your grasp and you feel like it's gone forever, and it is. But oh well. So now I feel a bit better.. my nose doesn't drip and my sore throat doesn't torment me as much. All I have is a headache and I'm not cold anymore. Yaaay. But not like you care. :) posted by Melike at 21:41
Yo supe que es muy dif�cil hablar por dos minutos en espa�ol.. grr! I ended up trying to do the Spanish thing for 45 minutes! I had nothing to say and sometimes I had huge pauses or I said something wrong or sometimes it was too short or long.. so grr. But I am salvaged today. Today's entry shall be written. But I will suffer tomorrow.. Tomorrow is oral recording day again. This is either a) a very cool coicidence or b) good art. In any case, it beith cool. That is it for now. I am becoming sick. Throat hurting. Pain, pain, more pain, headache. I want sleep.. but I am not sleepy. Wah. posted by Melike at 17:05
Today was... okay, I guess. I feel really abused though, because I'm dying of lack of sleep and I didn't eat anything for 6:00 hours so when I finally did it felt weird and I feel weird now.. and I have a sore throat.. which sucks. It really does. Especially for a choir person and everything. I feel like.. like.. an ice skater without legs! Well, not quite. I could sing pretty well today, even though it stung on some high notes. So it feels more like.... an ice skater without arms or something. I had promised myself that I'd do my Spanish assignment of keeping a diary every day.. and now I'm so sleepy that I'm not so sure if I'm up for it. We have to have 5 written and 5 oral (recorded on tape) assignments, and I decided to do them interchangably.. Yesterday I did a written, so today I should be doing an oral. You know what, I just might do it. We only have to talk for two minutes anyway. After that I'm definitely tossing myself violently into bed, closing my eyes, and not budging until about 12 hours later. I'm not even gonna, like, lie back and think quietly to myself or anything. I'm just gonna bury my face into the pillow and sleep. (Well, if I did that, I'd never wake up.. so.. but.. you know what I mean.) Thinking is bad right now. It won't do me any good because I have nothing to think about, and I'd rather sleep than waste time on such activities as 'thinking.' Thinking, pish! Who does that? Certainly not me. Certainly not now. *walks away zombie-like* posted by Melike at 02:35
Friday, September 14, 2001
Ugh. I'm so tired.. all because I went to bed at 12:00 last night because of reasons I shall not go into here. Today I felt horribly depressed. I don't know what's wrong with me! I don't THINK anything is wrong.. I mean I hope not.. After school I burst into tears as soon as I got into the car.. haha! My mom was freaked out. Anyway, then at home she gave me good food and I felt better, and I had SAT prep class today and that really raised my spirits. I think it's actually working! Hehe... it had better work.. grr. Anyway, that is all droopy-eyelids-girl is saying for today. I still have Spanish homework to do.. *YAWN* posted by Melike at 01:41
Wednesday, September 12, 2001
Hehe. I guess my entry didn't show up last night.. sorry, Chelsea! But as you can see, I didn't write much.. I mean... what is there to say? It was bad and horrible, and I'm scared, and we're all going to die, and all my art is going to perish, but nobody cared about that in the first place. Ummm... Really, what can I say? Geez. People just expect me to spurt out deep and thoughtful reflections! I mean.. okay, this is gonna sound rude and controversial and everything, but it's actually quite interesting.. I mean, I never thought stuff like this would happen during my lifetime! Of course, I probably wouldn't be this interested if I was going to die soon. I hope I don't. That'd be sad.. for me, at least. Besides that, I'm having a bad day.. and not because of all this stuff that happened. In fact, nothing actually happened to make this a bad day. Everything is going normally. Maybe I am going through weird internal stuff. *grin* I guess I'll be okay.. maybe I haven't been getting enough sleep lately. I just want to lie down and, like, sleep. Okay.. well.. sleeping would depress me too, actually. I hate the feeling of lying in bed with all my hair messed up and my face greasy and it's light out and I'm too lazy to budge so I just lie there for a couple of hours. Then I get up and I'm all dizzy and woozy... well whatever. Okay, maybe I don't want to sleep. posted by Melike at 19:44
Well.. I don't really feel like posting anything today, but I might as well, since everybody else is doing it. The thing... it is bad. Very bad. Okay, now that that's over with, I'm going to bed. See you all tomorrow. I'm tired, damn it. posted by Melike at 00:59
Tuesday, September 11, 2001
Hi. There's so much stuff to say and I waited until this hour to write them all down. I was procrastinating everything, including blogging. I was like, "No, do homework, procrastinate later." That came up with strange results. I spent the day going online, doing homework, going online, doing something else, going online, doing other work, etc. Ugh, man. Haha. Too confusing for me. Today, I woke up at 5:00 just to put on nail polish. (Well, I took a shower and everything too.) I matched perfectly. Light green nailpolish, gray skirt, light green top, gray jacket (same color as skirt.. oo, ahh!!), gray/green rings, gray necklace, green bracelets, gray shoes, grayish green eyeliner... actually, my underwear was the same tone of green too.. but hehe. Not to mention, my binder is green-and-black, and so is my Acadeca binder, and all this stuff. I think I'm a bit obsessed with the color green. The chairs in our Spanish class are green too! Yaay! Anyway, my point is, I matched perfectly. Actually, I match perfectly every day. People just come up to me and tell me how well I match and/or how good I look every day. Haha. What an ego booster. Today, I brought the cheap-o camera to school as promised, and took some pictures in class.. which I know aren't going to show, because it's a crapzilla camera and it doesn't even have zoom or flash. So.. I also learned that taking pictures from arm's distance isn't far away enough, the picture comes out blurry (cuz I often take pictures of myself). Oh well. In any case, pointing a cute little sky blue thing at things and pushing the big red button is fun. I used to play with that camera without film when I was little.. my parents thought I was weird. I didn't care. Argh! I get too much mail from Choralist, man. Like over 20 mails a day. I like reading them though. It's just that I get so psyched whenever Netscape says I have mail.. (cuz it checks it, like, once a minute, haha I am so good) And I just expect a mail from a PERSON, you know, someone I actually know, but no, it's just a silly choir thing. Not to dis choir or anything though. Choir rules, man. Anyway, I think this may be a mental thing, checking mail whenever I can. I'm serious. If I could, I would get it to check my mail once every 0.5 minutes or something.. but that's ridiculous. I mean, it's not like I get tons of mail or anything either. I don't know why it's such a big deal. But I guess it is. I must plan my clothes for tomorrow. I must match well again! I'm running out of clothes ideas, though. I don't know why. Well.. I guess I'll find something tomorrow morning. Ahh, I wish it rained! Oh man.. we're going to Turkey (probably) during Winter Break.. I haven't seen snow since I was 10, except for that one time 3 years ago when we went to Big Bear.. but that doesn't count. Yay snow! I'll be sure to take lots of pictures, because Turkey rules so much when there's rain and snow and stuff. I feel so cuddly in rainy weather. Oh, cuddle! I wish I had something to cuddle with.. Like.. I guess, a dog or something, since I don't want a dog. And you can't really get a person to cuddle unless it's a little kid, a friend, a boyfriend, or a parent. Well.. I hate little kids, my friends have better people to cuddle with, I don't think I'm gonna get a boyfriend before it starts (or stops) raining, and.. well.. cuddling with my parents would be fun, except I'd sort of want silence and quiet, and there's no chance of that happening unless my parent is asleep in my arms.. And, well, that's not very exciting. *grin* I'm a weirdo. Don't think I'm scary or anything, but the snake in Mr. Gaida's room made me want to hug it and kiss it. Haha. It was so cute!! Me, who thinks everything and everyone is cute, sounds weird when she is overcome with cuteness. I didn't hug it though, out of fear that it'd bite me or something. Besides, cuddling with a snake is a bit weird. But yeah. Good. I'm writing blog entries with more content now. Content as in, not just "this is what I did today." Yeah. I guess that's it for now.. bye. posted by Melike at 01:21
Monday, September 10, 2001
I am so depressed.. Pete Sampras lost the championship at the tennis thing today! It was so sad that I wanted to cry.. Anyway, then I went to SAT class and it was fun. My score was pretty good, but not good enough. Hope I better it though.. Well, I will, but still. Anyway. Aw. I was going to go to bed at 10:00 and it's already 10:23. Ah well. Guess I'll stay online some more. :) I've made up my mind.. I'm going to bring my cheap-o camera *and* my sketchbook to school every day. Will take pictures/draw whenever inspired. Hope that works. Hehe.. if not.. then wah. posted by Melike at 01:23
Sunday, September 09, 2001
I guess today's going to end up being pretty uneventful, except for the SAT class this afternoon. Anyway, I'm seriously thinking about making that photography page.. even though I'm lazy most of the time and don't take many pictures, I bet the page would grow with time.. even though my cheap-o camera has no flash, nor zoom button, nor anything besides a big red button to take the picture. I'm thinking of either taking pictures outdoors or using a flashlight to point at things while taking pictures. The outdoors thing.. well, I don't know how that would work. I never go out unless it's for school or going to hang out with friends. Maybe I'll take it with me to school. I'm hitting two birds with one stone... I'm reading CNN in Spanish. Haha. posted by Melike at 16:02
Hehe. I am such a ham. This one day after school my mom and I went to a park and I had a photo shoot.. Surprisingly, most of the pictures are good! There were also the pictures I took of myself with my cheap-o camera with only one button on it and no zoom. Most of the pictures didn't come out, but the few did that were interesting. They're.. um.. artistic. Yeah, that's the word. I might make a separate page to store my "photography," if you will. I actually like some of them. I want to display them because the ones I took in Turkey were really good. *gets inspired* Anyway, it is the end of another pointless day. Oh well.. I'll be busy enough tomorrow, then on Monday there's school! Woohoo. posted by Melike at 03:35
This blog... it isn't like other blogs. I actually went to it a second time and bookmarked it. I never did like bookmarking stuff on Explorer, because it was our communal family browser. But now that I have my own account thingie so all the bookmarks are mine.. and my mail automatically gets checked once a minute! *cackle* It makes me very happy. Anyway, I'm tired of writing about what I do all day. Nobody cares. I should save that stuff to make conversation. I'm not a really good conversationalist.. I'm one of those people who likes to listen. The perfect relationship is the one where the other person talks 90% of the time.. well, okay, maybe 80. In any case, it feels really awkward to talk to someone who's exactly like me.. We both just sit there, and get pissed at each other and ourselves for not finding anything intelligent to say, and just feel plain uncomfortable. I don't really like that.. except if it's with Kai.. He may be forgiven because he's Kai. Searching for non-materialistic things to say.. I mean beyond the "I did this and that.." more like "I feel this and that" and maybe interesting and humorous comments to make people come for more. But... I don't think it's going to happen anytime soon. posted by Melike at 00:18
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