Mon, I just spent like hours working on my homepage, and too bad you can't see what I've done until later - much later! *gets increasingly excited* OMG LUB. posted by Melike at 21:02
Hahaha!! I was reading one of my old notebooks and I started laughing at the stuff I wrote.. like this: "Max has a great personality. Probably one of my best characters. But this thing about his... attitude.. But that's what builds his personality and it'd be wrong to make him stop swearing and drinking and stuff like that. I'd tell you about his past, but that's for Double M, sorry. Actually, I feel sorry for him. It's true that he's a cold-hearted maniac with a large ego but on the inside he's an innocent insecure little child.. OKAY NOW I'VE DONE IT!! I'm never going to show this notebook to anyone � ever! ARGH! I don't know why I write these things down! NOOOO! The world has come to an end!" *snickers* I love myself and my weird paranoia that people are gonna laugh at my world inside my head. By the way, Double M never was completed and I didn't even get to the part where I explained his childhood.. Oh well, I guess you shall never find out! posted by Melike at 19:07
Ohhhh yay liiife!! *really giddy* Damn it, I wish it wouldn't take so long! I can't wait to disclose it to ze public! *trembles with excitement* posted by Melike at 05:11
The calculator is my new study buddy. I use its random integer generator to ask me random numbers from 1-43 so I may quiz myself on which president it is and what state he's from. I think I've memorized the states, with the exception of a few. I'll memorize their political party next, and then maybe their wives if I'm feeling extra adventurous. The problem is, I should be able to identify the state from the president's name, and I memorized them according to numbers. I hope I won't have too much trouble, and don't have a hard time converting in my head. posted by Melike at 00:32
Friday, March 29, 2002
I am crazy - I'd said that I wouldn't go to bed before finishing those worksheets, so I stayed up until past 2:00 doing them. But now I'm done! BAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!! That makes me giddy. After I do the practice test, the only real work I'll have is to memorize all the presidents. Also.. I want to get a huge periodic table of elements to hang up on my wall!! It'd be sooo cute!! .. and sexy. ;) Sorry.. I'm feeling pretty nerdy these days. Also, I woke up at 10:00 today! I'm getting just what I want.. going to bed late and waking up early (or, at least, at a reasonable hour)! Tis so great. I spend my days doing nothing but at night I become a homework-doing machine! These next few days I will be trying to incorporate work into the daytime, too. Sorry.. I know you don't care much. But hey, I have other stuff to talk about. You know, my dreams usually piss me off during vacation time, because they keep reminding me of things I don't want to think about. It's like they're saying, "Don't try and hide it, you're feeling these feelings towards this person!" And today, I saw more people than I did yesterday. There was just a room full of all these people from school and I didn't know most of them. But I saw Jason! And Tom was in my dream too.. *laughs* We were joking about Mr. Rhodes. Anyway, I won't go into it here but it was funny. Other things in my dream included: chinese food, sleepovers, chem experiments that could only be done by being killed in various ways to test stuff in your body.. I think it was neurotransmitters. And hey, you had to have several trials for it too, so they resurrected you after each time you died. My favorite way of dying was being mauled by a doberman because it was so fast you almost didn't feel it... almost. And someone held you while being killed so you couldn't run away. I usually closed my eyes and awaited my fate, but when I looked at the thing that was about to kill me, I could see that it was awaiting a signal to kill me from the person who was holding me. It was really scary. Oo I also went into Gaida's room and Mr. Gaida was reviewing bio with Eva. That was weird too. And Jason, he was like.. I guess, that sort of person in dreams who lets you know exactly what you're feeling towards someone.. Like, I was talking to him about somebody, and he told me I was jealous, and I yelled at him and said I wasn't, but then deep inside I was. Grrr. Hehe, silly dreams. I would like to write it down someplace, but really, I sort of want to forget about it, since the whole theme of the dream was about something I don't want to think about. posted by Melike at 14:59
*goes chem crazy* My goal for tonight is to finish taking all the notes and to complete all the worksheets so that all that will be left will be the practice take-home exam, which I will do tomorrow and/or Saturday. Then I will be done! But grr, I'm scared of the take-home test because it means I have to review all the stuff we've learned all year. Like titration, and many other things that I can't even remember right now! But they were scary things, I tell you. *tremble* And then, after that, if I have time, I'll read the chem book from cover to cover. It will be fun. But not before I memorize all of the presidents. (Pick a random number... 13.. Millard Fillmore!! *eyes spin*) *looks at her list of things to do* Oh yes, I also have to memorize the rest of the Bach piece, all my jazz songs (okay, that's debatable), and work on the Valhalla song, just because I said I would and I feel bad not doing it after writing it on my to-do list. There are also other things on my mind these days, one of which is the book I have to read for English class.. but that's easy. Ohhh why must my devotion to a subject be characterized by total obsession?! I don't have time left over for anything when I obsess over everything. I am a maniac. posted by Melike at 01:56
I am coming to appreciate Spring Break. Now I see it as a period of time when the school gives you all the time you need to do your homework and maybe catch up. You take a breather and pace yourself while doing homework, so you get work accomplished and rest at the same time. Oh, it is such genius! I'm going to do non-stop homework every day from now on. Slap me if I ever complain about doing homework during Spring Break again! posted by Melike at 18:19
Two things: 1. I am so sexy today! Whenever I look in the mirror I'm like, "Man! I look like a model!" Nice to have self-confidence. Thanks to those who've helped in the past. 2. What I made myself memorize in about 45 minutes:
1. George Washington, 2. John Adams, 3. Thomas Jefferson, 4. James Madison, 5. James Monroe, 6. John Quincy Adams, 7. Andrew Jackson, 8. Martin Van Buren, 9. William Henry Harrison, 10. John Tyler, 11. James Knox Polk, 12. Zachary Taylor, 13. Millard Fillmore, 14. Franklin Pierce, 15. James Buchanan, 16. Abraham Lincoln, 17. Andrew Johnson, 18. Ulysses Simpson Grant, 19. Rutherford Birchard Hayes, 20. James Abram Garfield, 21. Chester Alan Arthur, 22. Grover Cleveland, 23. Benjamin Harrison, 24. Grover Cleveland, 25. William McKinley, 26. Theodore Roosevelt, 27. William Howard Taft, 28. (Thomas) Woodrow Wilson, 29. Warren Gamaliel Harding, 30. (John) Calvin Coolidge, 31. Herbert Clark Hoover, 32. Franklin Delano Roosevelt, 33. Harry S. Truman, 34. Dwight David Eisenhower, 35. John Fitzgerald Kennedy, 36. Lyndon Baines Johnson, 37. Richard Milhous Nixon, 38. Gerald Rudolph Ford, 39. Jimmy (James Earl) Carter, 40. Ronald Wilson Reagan, 41. George Herbert Walker Bush, 42. Bill (William Jefferson) Clinton, 43. George Walker Bush
I sometimes stumble in parts while saying them all in order, but I did better than I thought I would when my mom quizzed me by asking random numbers. My brain is fried. Hey, but that is not all. I am also going to memorize the years in which they were president, where they came from, their wives' names, vice presidents, etc. and significant highlights of their career. ROAR. But I have over a week, I think I can do it. Stupid Acadeca. :P posted by Melike at 16:34
Wow. A historical day. My site got more hits than my blog yesterday (and today it's looking pretty good too). That either says something about the decline in the interest of my blog or the increase of popularity of my site. Actually, I never knew this but I get so many hits from a particular directory of furry artists. Maybe I should submit to more similar things. I found a pattern in my circadian rhythms: if I go to bed at 12, I wake up at 7! But today I couldn't get myself to get up so I got up at 8:30. Oh well, at least it's early. Right now my eyes are throbbing, though. I think I got a bit too much shampoo in my left eye. If not, then I don't know what's wrong with it. *cries* My entries are a good representation of what Spring Break is: boring. But not too boring, unlike my entries. I've been having big dreams that don't talk about anything specific but they're one of those dreams where you see almost everyone you know. Like Sally had bleached hair and cornrows, and David was stressing about how much work he didn't have, and Jocelyn and I find out today (March 28th) that our Bach piano recital is actually TODAY instead of some day in May (it's actually in June). We panicked because we both didn't know the entire thing yet, and we told Linda that, and she got pissed off and said that it was our job as musicians to wing it. And our recital actually had a Samo orchestra performance preceding it, so almost everyone we knew in school would be there and would watch us when it was our turn to play. Two hours left until our performance, Jocelyn and I sat down and kept telling each other.. "Okay.. don't rush, keep a steady beat.. " etc. etc. since we hadn't even had one chance to play it together yet. Then I determined a measure to end the piece since we didn't know the last four pages. It was all chaos. Then I walked around to relieve myself of some stress and that's when the principal came on the PA system and started telecasting a skit of a conversation between him and Jesse. Oh, and before that, I think I threw a glass bottle against the ground and broke it. Also, Andrea had a car that was forest green and very shiny and cute looking.. it looked like glazed pottery. My mom had somehow borrowed it from her parents and picked me up from school with it. Andrea also had really short hair and she looked like a monk. Muahahaha. I'm sure many other things happened.. I think Mr. Rhodes was in there somewhere too.. Oh yes, I remember! We were singing this new song in choir and it was very cool and stuff. Then I was in Mr. Huls's room during lunch, and the bell rang and the people started coming into the classroom, and Jamie came in crying and I pouted at her, but she didn't really care about me. Then I was telling Jocelyn about the song we were singing in Madrigals, and that's when Mr. Rhodes walked in and told me that Chamber Singers were singing it too. Okay, that's all that I can remember. Ooo! Also, Garrett and Max were talking.. like.. Max said a particular type of drug that was the most deadly, and Garrett commented that it was even more deadlier than women. I remember snickering. Okay, that's all I remember. *big grin* My mom's watering her plants with whiskey. Hmm.. posted by Melike at 13:41
Most of the people who come to my site either get there by looking up the keyword "explosive" in a search engine, or by looking at Furry Art directories. Hm. I feel sort of bad for those who are looking for furry art, since I, like, never draw anymore. Rawr. But I don't get those creepy people who are searching for explosives. What are they planning to do, blow up the world? Also, I find it weird that they'd click on my site, since the site description clearly states that it is the page of a teenager with her furry art and characters. Maybe they want to take a break from thinking about destruction to look at silly drawings.. then they go back to researching bombs again. posted by Melike at 02:51
Wednesday, March 27, 2002
Woohoo!
(reason to be disclosed at a later date... join my mailing list [sign-ups below].) posted by Melike at 17:32
Tuesday, March 26, 2002
Sometimes I think that I fail at living right. I don't know how living right should be, but for some reason it doesn't seem like this is the way to do it. I would write more philosophical dribble, but right now I'm busy planning how to waste the rest of the day, and, eventually, the rest of my life. posted by Melike at 23:51
Today I looked through all of the e-mails I'd ever gotten from colleges (there were a lot) and replied to those that seemed interesting. Argh! There are so many areas I'm interested in that I can't pick what to major in. Actually, I'm sort of narrowing down my choices to more specific things, so I'm not freaked out about college anymore. I want to read my whole chem book from cover to cover (it's a little more than a thousand pages). I don't know, I just get weird notions like that. I want to devour books, but the last time I ever devoured a book was the summer before 9th grade. It's just that there are so many things to do in life that I end up doing none. Then I get all restless inside my head and just sit here. Haha. I think it's too much energy and inspiration for me to handle. posted by Melike at 17:56
Yay! Google Search: smile sun I'm so happy. Trackers are so cool!! I've always wondered how people found a way to get here. Anyway, believe it or not, we all got 10 hours of sleep at the sleepover. So I don't have to sleep now and the day isn't wasted! Yaay it was so fun, I'm so happy now. Another reason why I'm happy is a secret that shall be revealed in a couple of days.. or maybe weeks.. depends on how much time I'm willing to spend on it. Because, you know, I have homework and stuff like that too. I guess you'll just have to wait and find out. In fact, if you're so curious, you should sign up for my mailing list and get e-mailed when I do it: Alright, time for some homework now. posted by Melike at 16:42
Monday, March 25, 2002
So today, while I was staring at the reflection on my computer screen, I was reminded that I am beautiful!! Today I also love my eyebrows. Yaaay me! *hair toss* I bought the coolest book in the world, and it was worth a lot and it's really thick, so I'd better read it. Roar. And I got a silly idea of what I wanted to do with my life, but I don't know if I'll actually pursue it. Tonight I'm going to sleep over at Aimee's with Jocelyn, so I'm off in a few minutes. Bye! *giddy* posted by Melike at 21:34
So I was debating whether I should give Bianca a haircut that's really short. But then.. I saw this really beautiful drawing I'd done that would have been X-rated had it not included really long hair. Grrr. Tough life decisions. posted by Melike at 15:09
I hate dreams where there's all this wonderful stuff happening around you, but somehow you can'tyour eyes, and they feel watery.. like when you're tired and sleepy. And people talk to you, and you answer them, but you can't see where you're going. I had a dream that I had this really long conversation with Garrett, and it was really cute and stuff.. I was sad and he was trying to cheer me up. Then I was so tired and I couldn't see anything, so I accidentally bumped into him and he left the room. Then all this stress of trying to take a shower in five minutes, and then my mom forgot to call Jocelyn to tell her not to pick me up, and I found out an hour later so I was so scared that she would be waiting there forever. Anyway, yaaay spring break! I guess it's okay. I haven't done much work yet, but I should. I'm going book shopping today so I guess I'll buy my English book and start reading it. *looks at her list o' things to do* My nails are too long to play piano and I don't feel like cutting them right now, so I guess I'll have to.. either do chem or start memorizing the presidents. Grr. I think I'll try and compeuse for a bit. posted by Melike at 14:28
Sunday, March 24, 2002
Ugh I'm so tired.. the downside of waking up at 7:00. Today was nice. Ice Age was fun, and I love my friends. Sometimes I wish I were their mothers so I could live with them and take care of them. Hehehe. I'd sit in their rooms and on their beds and I'd be happy (but they wouldn't be). I don't know, right now I'm just full of all this fuzz. Maybe it's sleep, maybe it's love, maybe it's weirdness. But I refuse to give in to sleep! Instead, I'll try and compeuse, even though I have nothing in my head right now. Oh well, hopefully it'll come. I hope I wake up at 7:00 tomorrow! Actually, wait, no, I'm going to a sleepover and I wouldn't actually want to *sleep* there! *sigh* Hard life decisions!! posted by Melike at 23:05
I love myself. I'm so weird and cute. I am my best friend! *is suddenly filled with love towards herself* posted by Melike at 16:14
Woohoo! I was getting pretty bored, but then action popped up and now I have mucho fun stuff to do until the evening! *skips around and goes to get dressed* Wow, you SO DON'T CARE. Mwahahhaha. posted by Melike at 16:13
Wow, I wish I could wake up at 7:00 every day! I've finished all my math homework and done much more stuff, and it isn't even 10:30 yet! To tell you the truth, I'm so envious of people who automatically wake up at around 9:00 (David) and even before that, like at 5:00 or 6:00 (Aimee.. but she's weird). Grrr. Why must I resemble a hypersomniac? (Usually at any given day, I don't feel fully rested until I get 12 hours of sleep.) Grrr. I want to go to bed late and wake up early and not end up dying, like Aimee. Y'hear that, Aimee? Poop on you! posted by Melike at 13:21
Behold the woman of opposition! Presenting: Morning Person Melike. I woke up at 7:00 this morning. That's weird, since I went to bed at around 1:00 last night. Well, I figured I might as well get up, since I hate it when I wake up and half the day is gone. Woohoo! Today should be an exciting day. I don't know. But I do know that I shall do homework!.. a little. And then have fun the rest of the time. As opposed to yesterday, I feel very clean and "with it," whatever that means. I wish it weren't so early so that I could practice my piano. Ah well. *looks at her new layout* Man, I love it, it's so pretty and neat!! But I can't wait until I buy webspace. Roar. I shall try and convince my father today... after he wakes up. *stares in awe at the purtylicious colors* posted by Melike at 10:39
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